The weeks since March 27, the day I took my most beloved husband to the ER in southern CA, have been a Retrospective-the final travels of Happily Homeless. It was gut-wrenching, re-living those days but I found a little more balance with hindsight and I’m glad I sifted through the memories in pictures and words. Present over everything, seeping into the nooks and crannies of that experience, was the fullness of love. For Handsome Husband, from Handsome Husband. I still have questions but there is a little bit more of letting go of needing to find the answers, some of the anger around it, and even some of the questions and doubts.
The story of Happily Homeless. How a man and a woman, children grown and out of the house, decided to sell house and belongings, get out of the rat race and adventure together. A love story, perfect for us. Four years on the road together, learning about this country, learning more about each other, fighting at times, loving always, dancing in Death Valley, watching the moon rise over all the lower 48’s, dealing with a first cancer successfully, and getting right back on the road, continuing on until the very end and then bringing Nothin’ but Love to him as a second cancer killed him. A Once Upon a Time Love Story of me and Handsome Husband.
Here I am now, in Arizona, with a broken heart that somehow hasn’t killed me. A life that is 100% changed except for the Love that he left behind. And a mission to fulfill his final request of scattering his cremains at our favorite places from our 4 years of travel.
I return to the road full-time on June 20 in my PinkMagic rig. My T@b trailer has been fitted out inside as a sanctuary at the end of the day. Yet to be added on the outside front are the letters “FWG” in raspberry pink. The polite meaning of those letters is “fierce Warrior Goddess”, for those of you who might be offended by what it really means to me-“Fucking Warrior Goddess”. Because that’s what I am now.
I won’t be alone as I return to the road. Our younger daughter, Kamahooptra, will travel with me on what we are calling our 2014 Nothin’ But Love Tour.
Here’s the big announcement, dear readers. Happily Homeless is merging with Moonstruck, the business born of the Love left behind by the man who was my husband and her dad. Happily Homeless is the story. Moonstruck is the telling of that story and the love that has grown and rippled out in furious waves since his death.
What is Moonstruck? How’s this for an explanation? Moonstruck is a trailblazing, kick-ass, mom/daughter duo on an extraordinary mission of love that will inspire you, challenge you, and, just maybe, change your life.
Our face book page will stay the same, with a slight name change. All will be easily accessible to you so that you can follow our adventures. Believe me, the Happily Homeless story is only going to get bigger. We’re going to make our mark on this country. The story of this Odyssey of Love is going to draw in more people as Kamahooptra and I travel. We’ll be blogging together and separately, updating you daily, posting pictures as we travel first north and west, then north, turning right to head to the upper West, south to Colorado, east to Indiana, NJ and New England, then south along the Atlantic coast to Key West, then along the Gulf coast to return to Arizona sometime next year. Along the way we’ll offer workshops, blessingways, moon circles, videos about ritual, about where we are and what we’re seeing, and yes, what its like traveling as mom and daughter in this magical PinkMagic rig.
My life of travel with Handsome Husband is what prepared me to be able to do this. This, the next year out on the road, is where I’ll find him again. Re-visiting our favorite places, fulfilling his final wishes, carrying the story, spreading the Love..its where he’ll find me too. As he told me he would.